Where to start, where to start!
I don't want to jinx anything, but at this point in time I'm feeling pretty good about this whole thing.
He and Sarah came over today, and the three of us sat around, talked, and me & Ryan cuddled a bit. He smells good. Like laundry detergent and cigarettes, which is strangely a good combination.
There's some awkwardness, of course, but me and him do seem to get along well. =] Other than a couple of bad habits he has, I think I could really fall for him... and that's really all that matters. Taking the good with the bad, and loving them perfectly.
I'm pretty sure he's been with quite a few girls, and that intimidates me.
Oh, and his mommy is Korean. That is SOOO KICK-ASS! <3 That solves the mystery of why is eyes are so almondy shaped.
But I wish I could figure out his last name. Dycerc? Dysert? WTF is it?
That will remain a mystery for now.
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I really want this to work.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Picnic.
Today was the day of the picnic. Jared texted me at 3am asking me to wake him up around 10:30. So I did. Sarah got to my house a little late, but it's okay because we made the cookies and sandwiches just in time. Of COURSE we were still late because we had to wait on Jared and TJ. Yes, TJ. The person which me and Sarah just cannot stand. I don't know if Jared invited him, or if TJ invited himself, but I was NOT a happy camper when I found out.
Anywho, when we got to the park we met up with Ian and Luke, then Meredith showed up a few minutes later. We had a good time, and an even better time when Dumb and Dumber left. Sorry about the cornyness. But it's true.
At one point, after we had swung for a while and were all sitting down, I looked at TJ and basically told him he was free to leave. I sounded insisting.
Jared isn't that much of an ass when he's by himself, but TJ is almost always at his side nowadays. What was I thinking? Ryan was right... =/
But yeah, anywho, after those two left we hung out by the creek a bit and talked. It was nice. =] And I can't wait to see all the pictures we took!
After that, Sarah drove us to LFCC even though her rehearsal didn't start till 7ish. I was a dummy and let my mom take my car for the day. Oops.
I really wanted to see Ryan though... on the way there, Ian texted me saying Ryan was leaving the school. I didn't know what to do! We couldn't drive any faster. So I texted Ryan basically asking him to stay. He did. I was surprised, but happy. ^-^ <3
And because of him, I missed my rehearsal... oops. Ohh well. I told Ryan about Jared and he reinforced something that he said before. "Guys are nice to you till they get what they want, then they're dicks." Or something like that. He said that Jared wanted to come along, and did, and because he got what he wanted he acted like that. Hm. I wonder what it is that Ryan wants... and if he will act that way once he gets it.
Gawd. I really do like him... & I know he at least likes me a 'little'. Which is better than nothing. A lot better.
Wonder what this weekend will be like, if we do happen to go... hm. Interesting, that's fer sure.
...yup.
Liprings are HOT.
Just sayin'.
Anywho, when we got to the park we met up with Ian and Luke, then Meredith showed up a few minutes later. We had a good time, and an even better time when Dumb and Dumber left. Sorry about the cornyness. But it's true.
At one point, after we had swung for a while and were all sitting down, I looked at TJ and basically told him he was free to leave. I sounded insisting.
Jared isn't that much of an ass when he's by himself, but TJ is almost always at his side nowadays. What was I thinking? Ryan was right... =/
But yeah, anywho, after those two left we hung out by the creek a bit and talked. It was nice. =] And I can't wait to see all the pictures we took!
After that, Sarah drove us to LFCC even though her rehearsal didn't start till 7ish. I was a dummy and let my mom take my car for the day. Oops.
I really wanted to see Ryan though... on the way there, Ian texted me saying Ryan was leaving the school. I didn't know what to do! We couldn't drive any faster. So I texted Ryan basically asking him to stay. He did. I was surprised, but happy. ^-^ <3
And because of him, I missed my rehearsal... oops. Ohh well. I told Ryan about Jared and he reinforced something that he said before. "Guys are nice to you till they get what they want, then they're dicks." Or something like that. He said that Jared wanted to come along, and did, and because he got what he wanted he acted like that. Hm. I wonder what it is that Ryan wants... and if he will act that way once he gets it.
Gawd. I really do like him... & I know he at least likes me a 'little'. Which is better than nothing. A lot better.
Wonder what this weekend will be like, if we do happen to go... hm. Interesting, that's fer sure.
...yup.
Liprings are HOT.
Just sayin'.
Feels Like Spring.
Today will be a high of 72 degrees and mostly sunny. Amazing. It's been raining all week, and I've been looking forward to this day for a long time. I've been dying to get outside and just play.
Sarah will be here in about twenty minutes. I had nothing else to do. I'm dressed, hair done, make-up done, and boy, do I look fabulous. It's the first time I think I've worn a tank top all year.
Jared will be here at about 11:30. He better not make us late. I'm surprised he's coming, actually... oh man, what to do. If he is interested in me like I think he is, then I have a tough choice to make here soon. Not that I mind. I like playing the field.
But honestly, between Jared and Ryan, there's no contest. It's Ryan hands down. Like, a million hands down. But we'll see.
It would have been Jared if last night hadn't changed everything. Oh man, I dunno what it was that happened, but I'm glad it did. Now, there's this chain reaction of nothing but positives! I've been looking forward to something excellent happening for a while now. It's just what I needed, when I needed it. It's what Sarah needed too.
And I just hope that she doesn't have the least bit of guilt in her. If she did, it'd be pointless. There's no reason to. I was thinking about how selfish it would have been to just keep things how they were - nobody getting nowhere. And it's stupid since I don't have any feelings for him anymore. I'm glad she told me. And if she hadn't, then I don't think I would have started up the conversation with Ryan that made me oh~so~happy. And the more I think about it the more and more it just makes sense.
Funny how things turn out in the end. I hope everything works out perfectly.
It will.
But maybe not for Jared. ;)
Sarah will be here in about twenty minutes. I had nothing else to do. I'm dressed, hair done, make-up done, and boy, do I look fabulous. It's the first time I think I've worn a tank top all year.
Jared will be here at about 11:30. He better not make us late. I'm surprised he's coming, actually... oh man, what to do. If he is interested in me like I think he is, then I have a tough choice to make here soon. Not that I mind. I like playing the field.
But honestly, between Jared and Ryan, there's no contest. It's Ryan hands down. Like, a million hands down. But we'll see.
It would have been Jared if last night hadn't changed everything. Oh man, I dunno what it was that happened, but I'm glad it did. Now, there's this chain reaction of nothing but positives! I've been looking forward to something excellent happening for a while now. It's just what I needed, when I needed it. It's what Sarah needed too.
And I just hope that she doesn't have the least bit of guilt in her. If she did, it'd be pointless. There's no reason to. I was thinking about how selfish it would have been to just keep things how they were - nobody getting nowhere. And it's stupid since I don't have any feelings for him anymore. I'm glad she told me. And if she hadn't, then I don't think I would have started up the conversation with Ryan that made me oh~so~happy. And the more I think about it the more and more it just makes sense.
Funny how things turn out in the end. I hope everything works out perfectly.
It will.
But maybe not for Jared. ;)
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